God's Will

There are certain things in life that we want for ourselves but not given. Later on  we would realize the reason why it was not given which is for us to be a better person. 

I received a sadden news today. I was not accepted in the government agency where I applied a couple of months ago. All this time I thought I was only waiting for an appointment letter because I already submitted my employee requirements and done a series of interviews. Only up to this day that I have known that my batch mate was already accepted and had been reporting to the office assigned for one month already. She said that they repeated the whole process a couple of months ago but only few of them was called to do so. Maybe because of the new head that was assigned or because of some other reasons why it was repeated. There are some disappointments on my part because it was one of the competitive jobs I could have if I would stay in the province. It is a secured job working in a government agency. It ends up all my waiting and false hopes. It was my husband and I's agreement that if I would be accepted from that job, we would stay in the province but since it is not possible I should better stay here in the city. Thinking more about it, I never really like that job, I just want it for its location. In fact, there are hesitations on my part to apply for that job because of the bad feedbacks I received from that government agency. Anyways, it is God's answer to all my questions and now is the  time to move on from that false hope and settle myself here in the city and be more appreciative with my current job. May God bless me always in my decisions with my career, family and in everything else.